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So I applied for internships at Blizzard and Pixar today.

Both of them supply housing and both of them pay.

They are also two of the most desirable companies to work at in the country.

Haha, a chance in a million, but whatever, the nice thing is that it doesn't cost anything to submit a portfolio, so it's just like playing a fantastic lotto for free that not only calculates chance, but throws in skill as well.

oh!

And comic-con is coming up in a week, so although that won't be the same level of *awesome* that getting into pixar or blizzard would be, I figure I might as well shop around my portfolio there too.

Why the hell not, right?

Let's play god!

After all, in the long run what's the difference between a fictional city or a real one?

A stone carcass is a pretty lousy answer.

Well, I guess why not spend every moment the way you want to if given a choice?

Why spend even a moment doing something that doesn't make you happier if it is not necessary in some way for future happiness?

Be greedy for it, in the end, beginning, and middle it is the only true measuring stick of life.

Still here, just busy.

Been working on some stuff that isn't all that interesting in preparation for stuff that is very interesting, but I'll post a few drawings that might tide you over. Of stuff completely unrelated.

Wow. Tired.

Eh... Life would be so much easier if the inward nature of people actually did influence their outward appearance.

And then would people grew little tiny faces ON their faces if they had split personalities, or if they really had no personality at all, they would just cave in on themselves.

Like a jack-o-lantern that's still sitting outside in may.

But without the stain.

Eh, once again I delete paragraphs of writing because they just aren't worth saying.

(was rambling on about escapism and how it's always been a consistent factor in my life)

Well, with all that written and deleted, I have nothing more to say.

Here's some stuff.

Without a doubt the way I draw and approach drawing is going to be greatly affected by this upcoming semester.

I embrace this change absolutely.

My mind, my imagination, the way I approach my work, I'm always haunted by the fear that stagnation will overtake, or is already overtaking, those things and all that I produce.

I'm young and still learning constantly from what I do or fail to do, so maybe I shouldn't be so worried.

But it's hard, and perhaps pointless, to try and separate myself now from who I will be twenty years from now.

Much easier to just view the future as something that has already happened, and to work to shape the past so that it becomes a bit more livable.

...

But so many superfluous things constantly distract me and engage me. The problem is that I really can't tell what is going to be important and what isn't.

In hindsight it's always easy to see where time was wasted or where it was well spent, but as is proved relentlessly throughout my life and others it is often the stupidest and most inconsequential of decisions that turn out to have the most lasting effects.

Good or bad of course.

etc etc etc.

No sense in rambling on about a point everyone has ground into dust with thought already.

Anyways.

Here's to a new four years with someone who seemed to be the right decision at the time.

Let's hope it pays off a bit more than the last few rounds.

If I had another week of break I'm really not sure what kind of strangeness I'd be drawing.

But it's time to go back to classes, so it's back to long term and (slightly) more cohesive drawings to emerge.

I've got a whole new stable of teachers this year, for the first time in years, but I'll be optimistic about it up until I hate them.

haha, nah, they'll all be totally great and let me do whatever I want while still giving me constructive intelligent criticism.

c:

Hey, I finally reached the same amount of posts as my old sketchblog.

cool I guess.

While rummaging through my desktops hard drive I came across the portfolio that got me into Pratt.

Holy crap I was bad.

I mean, not even just comparatively so. Just bad.

Maybe they can sense spirit or something, but I'm kind of amazed that things have worked out this well so far.

Well, all the more reason to try harder.

And on that note, more quickies.

just started reading atlus shrugged, figured it was one of those books you kind of have to read, and I'd be laughing at the ridiculousness of the incompetent businessmen riddled throughout the businesses in the book along with the obvious attempts to use other people's money to save their own asses if it wasn't *exactly* what was happening to our economy right now.

I mean really. It's a step away from reading an article on the current government bailouts.

Eh, anyway.

School is finally about to start and I'm almost counting the days.

Not for this semester, although it should be fun, but because like awaiting a final, a shot, or some momentous news I really feel that I'd like to cut to the chase and get on with it already.

By that I mean that I'd like to graduate and start living my life.

I never wanted to be defined by where I live, who I know, who supports me, or anything that exists outside myself unless I actively chose it to do so.

But soon, and for the first time, I will be able to push myself into a void where all umbilical cords can be cut with impunity.

Perhaps I will float there without being able to reconnect to anything or one.

But that seems unlikely, and if it will be the case temporarily then that's okay too.

I feel cautiously optimistic about the whole thing.

(pictures today are mostly meh studies, but the orange piece is drawn from a jill greenberg photo. So... ®©™ to her I guess.)

Well I'm off to go socialize.

If spend anymore time today alone and talking to my cats...

.

But on a positive note I actually cleaned out the sink, fridge, and my room!

Seriously, this is an accomplishment.

I worked today, I bought groceries, I talked briefly with friends over the internet/phone, drew a bunch, fed cats multiple times, fed myself multiple times, went online, and will soon go to bed.

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I have a feeling of foreboding that this kind of day might happen alot after graduation.

I also stumbled across Jill Greenberg's photos online and figure they could be great for some emotion studies, found some cool brushes I'll use for awhile, and illustrated a poem for a friend.

oh, also one of the pictures I'm posting was done by my dad.

see if you can spot it!

woops!

Went awhile without updating or doing a comic or anything!

Oh well, that's the joy of not getting paid to do this I guess.

I do have the next page all sketched out, but haven't found the time yet to ink/color it.

It'll happen.

oh!

The James Jean exhibition was painfully good.

He has a way with colors and lines that actually makes me feel pain at how much I want to be able to do what he does.

Eh...

Well, I took some pictures that I'll dissect later.

Such beautiful stuff. If I had forty thousand dollars lying around I would have bought a triptych in a second.

Anyways, I have work in the morning, so that's it.

Oh.

Also better burger is pretty meh.

meh.

Been drawing all day at work and took awhile off to eat dinner with the folks.

Also drew a picture that got erased when my browser crashed.

And drew a picture I will post in this post. New character! Main potential love interest!

(I plan on making him utterly pathetic, but unintentionally awesome. )

However because of above things, no comic for today. It's only one in the morning now so I could probably chunk out the sketches, but still won't be able to get the whole page done.

Ah, such are the perils of self set deadlines and obligations.

...

Eh, how much more time do we have left before school starts?

This break is turning out to be more exhausting than classes...

Went out to dinner with an old friend last night and had both fantastic food and a very good time.

Sadly this put me behind schedule on this here comic, which has also taken the longest time of all of them so far for some reason, and so I will unfortunately miss a day.

Still have to do some concept designs of vehicles today for work!

OHHHHH!!!!!!

ALSO!

:O

Axiotron released the modbook PRO!

It's a ridiculous 6,000 dollars, and it looks like the drawing pad of a GOD.

UGH!

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oh, and here are some nice links that I've been meaning to put up.

Two great tutorials and two fantastic artist pages.

http://www.itchstudios.com/psg/art_tut.htm

http://www.huevaluechroma.com/

http://www.abukas.com/

http://conceptart.org/forums/showthread.php?t=123338

points of interest.

Had face shoved into waitresses chest in a vain attempt to make me laugh. Also rubbed vigorously into said chest.


Saw emotionally draining and enjoyable opera. Also got to sit in 170 dollar seats for only twenty bucks.


Will be going to James Jean gallery this saturday with friends. yay!


Still have not cleaned up the apartment. Tomorrow.


Also still tired. Sleep, bah!

tipsy and tired.

each day is too full!

Eh, planned on cleaning up the brooklyn abode but...

just became so tired, ended up falling asleep for a few hours in the middle of the day, and more or less oozed around the apartment for the rest of the day.

I'm impressed I made it to Crown Fried in order to get dinner!

Ah well. Tomorrow will probably be too busy, but I'm sure I'll be up to tackling it head on come tuesday.

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My cats are happy to be home, and have been purring about the apartment happily pushing things around all day.

I'm a little terrified to think of what they'll be capable of knocking over when they get to be fully grown.

Oh well, it's adorable now.

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page two of "a comic a day".

Uh, the colors will be normalizing soon. I swear.